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The year is near its end, my banner has expired, and no one checks this anymore.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011


Why am I still here?

Maybe because this still holds a lot of significance for me.

I had a good day today. I had a strawberry sundae and I watched the sun change the sky's colors. The rain had just ended and it was late afternoon, so pretty much, the weather was fantastic. I walked home from Marcelo Avenue, the sun was just about to set. I took a detour through the park and watched children play. I wanted to ride the swings but I suppose it wasn't to happen. The sky was perfect, and The Starting Line's Playing Favorites was playing. I don't know what it is with me and weather and music like that, but it just makes me feel so... alive. I can't always say it makes me happy, because sometimes on beautiful days like this is when I am saddest.

It's 2:51 AM and I should be studying for midterms (I'm in college now!), but I like procrastinating. So much that I actually opened up a blog I haven't used in 10 months just to type something to waste time. I'm so wonderful.

Owl City tomorrow. Not that I'm going. Don't know how I'll make it through the day without crying. We'll see, we'll see.

I should study now.


2:46 AM | back to top

A farewell to 2010.
Friday, December 31, 2010


Since it has been months since my last update, I felt that it was my duty to bring my readers an entry, on this last day of the year.

This year has marked a lot of events. Events that were greatly significant, though they didn't seem to be at first. If there was anything I learned this year, it was that you should never take anything for granted. It'll always end in regret, no exceptions.

Another lesson. Through my experiences this year, I've found that things are almost never as they appear, and that the best way to go through life is to take things with a smile. As difficult as it sounds, it's the only way we can truly do things the way we should. If it's beyond our power to fix, then we shouldn't waste time, breath, blood, sweat, and tears over it. Laughing it off is always the best option.

I don't know why I feel particularly philosophical tonight, but maybe it has to do with the many instances that I've had to be strong this past year. I definitely feel like I've become wiser, just as much as I've turned another year older.

I'd be lying if I said that I have no regrets about how I lived my year. There's always going to be some sort of remorse for some stupid decision you make. But it's how it goes. We live, we learn.

I hereby resolve to stop the self-hatred for good. No more reason to.

2010 was a year of hope and discouragement, love and hate, laughter and tears. Just like any other year. But I know I will remember the things that have happened to me in the years to come.

And at 25 minutes before the new year comes in, I bid 2010 a final farewell.

May much happiness be poured out upon us this 2011!


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Today was eventful.
Sunday, August 29, 2010



Linggo ng Wika. Fun stuff. I'm too tired to talk about it, so instead here's a video of this skit I was in. I'm the screaming fangirl. >_>;

I ate so much today. @__@ Practically every type of rice cake was there... I love rice cake.

After the program, random silliness ensued between me and my lovely friends.


AGGY'S, REPRESENT.
*shot*

That is us. I'm on the far left, Camille is next to me, Jinggay is next to her, and Anelle is next to Jinggay. And that cute little thing at the bottom of the picture is Nevie.

We're amazing.

I got home at 11:57 AM and played Ragnarok. Hooray for my awesome new Angra. Heeeeee. I had to leave the house again though. Went to Yakimix at the Mall of Asia for Tita Lou's birthday party. I ate so much again. @____@;;;;; sushi and tempura and food you cook at your table. It was awesome.

Got home and played more RO. Heeeee. <3

And then Jean showed me this band. This particular song stood out. ._.


And I found it too amazing for me to not post the lyrics. I'm gonna say it: I relate to this song. I doubt anyone cares about/reads what I put on this blog anyway, so what's the point of being conscious about something that's trivial to the rest of the world?

Come Back to Me - Trading Yesterday

If I hold out my hand
Would it change where you're standing now?
Just come back to me

Leave all you've found
That's keeping your heart on the ground
Just come back to me

So afraid for love to come around your heart again
When it's the only thing you need
Just come back to me

Calling out your name
Wishing you could do the same
Just come back to me

Whatever it takes
I will wait until my dying day
Just come back to me

So afraid for love to come around your heart again
When it's the only thing you need
Just come back to me

This is my only hope
That the love that will not let me go
Will find its way back into your life
So I will not close my eyes
Until I see you by my side
Loving me tonight

If I hold out my hand
Would it change where you're standing now?
Just come back to me


I'm tired. Physically and emotionally. Good night.


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Pleasantly surreal. My first GMH moment.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010


Today, at school, I went to the girls' restroom. Not much to else to be said there, yeah?

Anyway, upon leaving the cubicle, I saw a green Post-It stuck to the mirror that said,

"Smile. You look beautiful."

It very easily made my day. I found it so sweet for someone to put that there just to make a person smile. I couldn't help but smile, myself, and say, "Aww, thank you."

I went back to work, and before I knew it, it was time for recess. I felt very tired that morning, so I decided to take a nap at my desk. When I woke up, I saw a green Post-It stuck to my desk that said,

"You're welcome. :)"

I don't know who's leaving me these messages, but if ever they stumble upon this blog post, I want to say thank you for making me smile and for making today so much brighter. You give me hope. <3


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YOU KNOW WHAT I MISSED?
Sunday, August 8, 2010


I REALLY MISSED LISTENING TO HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS.

I mean, wow. The last time I listened to them was 2007. I stopped listening shortly after Casey died, then I just kinda forgot they existed. I'm a horrible person, I know. But... yeah. Listening to them again brought back incredible memories.

I think I'm gonna go and listen to my old favorites and listen to tracks I haven't heard yet. o:



This is genius.

Just sayin'.


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Ohnooooooes July is oveeeeer and I haven't posted anything since June and I feel all ranty asdkjasdlj.
Saturday, July 31, 2010


Have I seriously gone that long without posting anything up here?

Guess I did. No matter, I'm back, and alive. Partially.

So. Lots has happened in the last two months. I would have a much more detailed explanation, but that's what procrastination does to you. Let's keep this short.

Political business. I volunteered to be the campaign manager for Jesus' League at the school elections a few weeks back. Logo designing, poster making, slogans, staying up late. It was awesome. Too bad I didn't make it to the meeting at Camille's house. Mother insisted it was too far away, and there was no way I could get there, considering I'm not allowed to commute by myself, and we've no car.

Instead, Mom and I stayed home that Wednesday. We had lunch and coffee in front of the TV while we watched the presidential inauguration. I was happy to have watched a moment that will go down in history. I hope that the administration brings a real change to the country. We've had enough of living this way. If everyone would just cooperate together and stop thinking about themselves so much, the Philippines would truly rise up as a nation and become prosperous, as it once was.

What's with my writing style today, though? I've never been so... dead.

Yet I don't really want to go back to my usual way of posting. Time for a change, maybe.

I was given multiple opportunities to go music tripping these past few weeks. Very pleased with the results. I'll be adding a few new bands to my listening list, among which are Anberlin, The Starting Line, and A Rocket to the Moon.

And I've found a lot of new good songs from my other favorite artists. Yay~

Piano playing has gone well. I've progressed, after a few months of being at a complete standstill. Which is a relief, considering that piano is one of my greatest passions in life. I've been immersing myself in video game instrumentals, and I found a very good piano arrangement for one of my favorite Xenogears songs. Truth be told, I found this several months ago, and I've listened to it an incredible amount of times already. I was listening to it on my iPod during the bus ride home last Friday, and I fell in love with it. Again. Lol, I don't know anymore. Just listen.



Close your eyes. It sounds impossible to play with two hands, almost. I would love to be able to play this one day. I've got to keep practicing.

BUT BAHAHAHAHAAAAA I FOUND THE SHEET MUSIC. 8DDDDDDDDD

*regains composure*

In other news, the elocution contest is coming up preeeetty soon, and the senior girls were made to memorize Henry Wadsworth Longfellow's "Paul Revere's Ride." It's probably the longest thing I've ever had to memorize, but I love the poem itself. It's beautifully written, and fun to recite, though some phrases can be tough to pronounce well. I was able to memorize all of it already. I just need to "befriend" the piece (as my sister said) and to get my actions and acting skills ready. Woohoo. Wish me luck.

The National Student Convention practices are in full-swing now, and I still don't know if I'm going or not. I'm still praying about it, but to be honest, part of me doesn't want to go. I don't know... I guess I feel like I'm never given a chance to prove myself. I'm well aware that I'm not too active in Convention matters because of my graduation requirements, but that doesn't stop other people from joining in... and I guess it's mostly how my other talents go unnoticed. Especially singing. I know that I'm not an incredible singer, but I can sing pretty well. Singing was my first real passion, and for it to be completely discarded over and over hurts me. I don't want to be stuck in the middle ground anymore. I want to break free from my mediocrity. That's why I want to be trained. Doesn't anyone see that anymore? I don't want anyone to think that I'm sour-graping, because I'm not. It's not bitterness either. It's frustration. I don't know over what exactly, but I'm incredibly frustrated. Maybe it's with the people around me, or the way things are happening, but mostly I think I'm frustrated with myself. I honestly WANT to improve. Whether in singing, or writing, or drawing, or playing my instruments, or anything else. But nobody really cares anymore, yeah? I didn't think so.

I needed to get that out of my system, and it pains me to think that I haven't even released half of whatever I'm feeling right now. I've got to restrain myself. People might think the wrong thing of me if I continue with my ranting.

So, good night.


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OhmyGoddddI'mstillalive.
Monday, June 21, 2010


I made it through the first week!! I'm wiped out. x__x

Apart from that, my throat really, really hurts. :C Asdlkasjfakljfsaldasd I DON'T WANNA GET SICK ANYMORE.

Gosh. I'm hanging on really tightly to this blog. Posts have been getting shorter and shorter and shorter with the passing days. Know that this is my way of keeping sane. Saaaane.

I heard this song on the radio yesterday, and it reminded me of you. Jejejeje?!

In any case, it's nice. Acoustic stuff. Here it is~





I reallyreallyreallyreallyreally miss you.


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