My sanity is forever riding on this.

Masochism.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Someone PLEASE tell me why I take such a perverse pleasure in hurting myself. I always, ALWAYS seem to want to keep attached to something that hurts me. Do I have such a naive hope for everything that I fail to see the wrong in things that are so blindingly obviously going to shatter me in the end? This is stupid. I feel stupid. What will tomorrow bring? Will I see you? Will you undo the mistakes you made? Will you rewrite those lies you told us and turn them into the truth? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO LIE?

I feel like I'm waiting for something that's not going to happen.

Don't think that this will be easy; saying that you love me proves lying tongues are clumsy.

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Her, in her partial entirety.

♥Lexine Ysabel♥
is a born-again Christian♥
is a girl of many aliases.
["Lex," "Lexi," "Lexiiiiiiiiine," "LY," "Laire," "Lexi Waisabelle," "Shexine," "Shexino," "Kappa," "Kappagoddess," "Kaps," "The goddess of Kappa," "Machucks," "Machux," "Chuckie," "Chuchu," "Chell," "Lexabelle," "Machuchu Train," "Lexichell," "Machuchell," "Machur Chucker(?!)," "Chucksabelle," "May," "Enixelle," "Enix," "Xelix," "~~Matandang Bangkero~~," ~~"Reyna ng Padala."~~]
is female, quite obviously.
was born on October the 5th, 1994, at approximately 10:30 PM.
is 16, sadly.
is the youngest of five siblings.
shifts between an inferiority complex and a superiority complex. A lot.
bursts into song quite frequently.
lives to capture beauty.
is a self-taught pianist and guitarist.
sings, too, though not too well.
is an occasional songwriter/poet/novelist.
is an artist in her own right.
currently lives in Metro Manila, Philippines.
is 1/2 Filipino, 1/4 Spanish, 1/4 Chinese.
is straight. Ftw. ~~But is gay for Katy Perry~~
moreover, is not looking for anyone to love.

♥You can describe her as:♥
imperfect.
insane.
witty.
brainless.
an enthusiast.
a procrastinator.
a sleepyhead.
motherly.
someone who worries too much for her own good.
someone who is a bit too nice for her own good.
an activist.
a future revolutionary.
a hippie.♥
complexity at its simplest.
mediocrity at its finest.
a pessimistic optimist, to be sure.
~~slightly~~ REALLY out of it.
a mild acrophobe.
insecure. Trying to fix that, kthx.
a pacifist.
brilliant. Sort of.
epic.
a walking contradiction.
a supposed grammar Nazi.
a hopeless romantic.
a music freak.

♥She LOVES:♥
♥God.♥
♥her family.♥
♥her friends.♥
♥SHEEP.♥
♥music.♥
♥love, in its essence. ♥
♥the sky. ♥
♥Katy Perry. ♥
freedom.
expression.
freedom of expression! *shot*
coffeeeeee~
vintage-looking stuff.
literacy.
Japanese and rock fashion. 8D
accessories. Seriously.
Scooby Doo.
and most non-21st century cartoons for that matter.
French, Japanese, and Philippine culture.
inspiring/art/romance films/musicals.
[Moulin Rouge!, Titanic, Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain, Across the Universe, The Notebook, the Phantom of the Opera, Sweeney Todd, Up, etc.]
video games.
[Xenogears, Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy Tactics, Final Fantasy III, Ace Attorney, Harvest Moon, Ragnarok Online.]
Aerith Gainsborough.
Garnet Til Alexandros.
Elhaym Van Houten.
Cloud Strife x Aerith Gainsborough. Hell yes.
Joe Anderson, Shaun Diviney, Andy Clemmensen, Bradie Webb, Gabe Saporta, James Marsden, Patrick Stump, Martin Johnson, Rico Blanco, Bartholomew Fatima, Billy Lee Black, Zack Fair, Zidane Tribal, Kristoph Gavin, and Miles Edgeworth. ^_^;
emotes and their overuse.
sweets.

♥She HATES:♥
cigarettes.
corruption.
abortion.
lack of appreciation.
being ignored.
being avoided.
unwanted opinions inserted into others' conversations. Ooh. Damn.
people with no lives. Like, the bad type. Where they have nothing better to do than pester you. I like the geeks who have no lives, because I am one. <3
PACE's.
bad music.
obnoxious noise.
confusion.
getting up on a school day.
having to go out of her way to get dressed and leave the house for something she doesn't want to do.
betrayal.
rudeness.
illiteracy.
hatred itself.

♥She wants:♥
a 32GB iPod Touch.
a working PlayStation 1.
a pet sheep. Baby doll, preferrably.
copies of Xenogears, Final Fantasies VII, IX, and Tactics, Harvest Moon: Back to Nature, Star Ocean: The Second Story, and Lunar 2: Eternal Blue Complete.
~~a cellphone.~~
~~a grapics tablet.~~
~~huge headphones.~~
~~a sustain pedal for her keyboard.~~
her own laptop that does not take 20 minutes to start up.
RebirthRO donates. 8D
a decent electric guitar.
a decent acoustic guitar.
an upright piano.
a baby grand piano.
a Holga camera.
a digital single-lens reflex camera.
a digital camera.
the Moulin Rouge! Original Soundtrack.
the Xenogears Original soundtrack.

♥She listens to:♥
A Fine Frenzy.The All-American Rejects.Anberlin.Augustana.The Beatles.Boys Like Girls.Cartel.Dashboard Confessional.Death Cab for Cutie.Diffuser.Fall Out Boy.FM Static.The Fray.Gin Blossoms.Goo Goo Dolls.Go Radio.Hawthorne Heights.Jimmy Eat World.Katy Perry.Kings of Leon.Lifehouse.Maroon 5.Mayday Parade.Muse.Nickelback.Nine Days.OneRepublic.Owl City.PANIC! at the Disco.Paramore.Plain White T's.The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.Regina Spektor.Relient K.Rico Blanco.A Rocket to the Moon.Sara Bareilles.Schuyler Fisk.The Script.Secondhand Serenade.Short Stack.Simple Plan.Skillet.Snow Patrol.The Spill Canvas.The Starting Line.Sugarcult.Sum 41.Superchick.Taking Back Sunday.Taylor Swift.Yiruma.

♥Ways to contact her:♥
Yahoo! Messenger: vanilla_galaxy2000@yahoo.co.uk
MSN: lexi.waisabelle@live.com
AIM: misskappagoddess
Skype: kappagoddess
Email: lexi.waisabelle@live.com

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